I’ve been waiting for the good things to come, desperately hoping for the change I need. Finally, I’m no longer tired, no longer tired of uni, tired of life, tired of doing the same thing and expecting something different, tired of loving, tired of trying. No amount of sleep would get rid of this feeling. This was a kind tired that sleep couldn’t fix. Now I have discovered the balance I needed to ease the pain. Through my struggles I have found the person I wish to become and although this is the end of one journey, it is just the beginning of another.

And finally I can see the makings of a silver lining.

There is no escaping this nightmare, no running from the present, no forgetting the past. The trust that once bound us has become my noose; I hang with my regrets tangled in your lies. One day you will realize it was you who destroyed us; it was you who destroyed me.

There is not one scenario where I would be good enough for you, and it destroys me a little everyday.

Sure, life will go on. The tragic thing is that I was counting on it being with you.

(Source: f-itz)

This is the time the loneliness takes over. Past lovers fly through my mind leaving me filled with regret. I long for the day I can love someone, absolutely, unconditionally love someone again.

“Life’s challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they’re supposed to help you discover who you are.”
- Bernice Johnson Reagon